Saturday, September 16, 2006
My Favourite Poem
By E. E. Cummings
I carry your heart with me
I carry it in my heart
I am never without it, anywhere I go
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
And the sky of the sky of a tree called life
which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder thats keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart
I carry it in my heart
ladybunny ♥
2:32 AM
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Monday, September 11, 2006
~* I'm Back !!!! *~
i almost forgot that i have a blog.. it's been one year since my last post --.--' quite long huh.. yea.. i've been really busy this year.. there're a lot of things goin' on in my mind at the same time.. i dunno why.. but it make me so depressed >.<>
hmm i think it started when i moved to my friend's apt last year.. since then, i've got a lot of problems.. dunno why.. i live my life like usual but things seem not working out well almost all the time.. especially these days.. it's so hard for me to find a good inspiration and great idea for my design. it really makes me frustated. it seems like i'm having a bad day everyday.. even when i go out for shopping, it's not as fun as before. i couldn't really enjoy it.. and again i dunno why.. and it's really weird if i can't enjoy my shopping time.. hmm well for some people who knew me really well, they will understand why i'm saying it.. but just in case you didn't know and curious about it.. oh well.. i used to be a shopaholic.. i can't stay at home the whole day.. i have to go out everyday, either go to cafe, shopping or maybe only window shopping.. but at least i have to buy something in one week period.. if not, i will get really 'crazy' and stress --.--' weird huh? well that's the way it is..
the good thing about it is that i can save some money for my summer holiday this year which is if all going according to the plan, i'm gonna go to USA for the first time in my life hehehe ;p i'm so excited.. hope i can get the visa though.. otherwise i'm gonna be so bored in Indo doing nothing. hmm talking about indo.. as the day goes by, i couldn't find anything good about that country though.. except for the food and for a really cheap products they have comparing to Aussie. if those things gone then i couldn't find any reason to have a holiday there beside my family.. if in the future they're still staying there though hehe..
hmm aniway, back to the topic.. yea, i'm so depressed right now, especially today.. *sigh* i don't know whether i have rights to blame my lecturer or not. he sent me an email 9PM satuday and asks us to do a presentation on monday.. the presentation part it's ok because i know that already.. but the worst part is that he wants us to make 3d model of our concepts, do a nice rendering and basically make the products look like the real things.. it took a long time to make it especially because my concepts are not as simple as it look when i start to make it in rhino.. well, the good thing is that finally i can finish on time, although there is one concept that i can't render because almost half of the surfaces are gone --.--' i was quite happy with my idea.. but then.. my teacher didn't like it.. he said he's not into that style.. well, just to let you know, he is the first aussie person that i found out so narcist esp. about his own products. so yea, what he likes it's only something that is similar to what he has produce. one of my friend has the same exact lamp like he had and he said it's fantastic, very clever and it's a brilliant idea, which i think he shouldn't say that thing.. it's just not right.. it's like plagiarism. because what i learn so far in this course, i can't design something that is already in the market or even a concept that people already known. but this-narcism-teacher seems like force us to copying what he has done.. and one thing that i think is really really stupid comment is when he ask me just to find an old chandelier and just wrapped it in silk to make a new lamp.. that was the most dumb comment i've ever heard.. it's not even redesign the lamp, it's only wrapping like a present or something. at least, as a good designer, he can suggest me a better aspect of light design for that particular place not just like that.. oh well.. yea, life is cruel and weird.. he made me to start all over again, by searching for a great place for the lamp and then make a 3d model, render it and finished it in photoshop to make it looks real.. well well.. i just wanna scream out loud now.. i'm really stress >.<
aniway.. i think i better sleep and forget everything for a while and see how it goes tomorrow.. hope everything will be better.. yea,.. i hope..
ladybunny ♥
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Friday, October 28, 2005
~* FinaLLy *~
huah.. i feel a bit relieve now.. i finished my last assignment 2 hours ago.. altough still waiting for the printing at least i can sleep tonight hehe.. hope there's nothing wrong with the printer.. bcoz i always have trouble with that printer at uni (>.<)
i've been very very busy since last week.. many problems came up at the same time (>.<) and i got just a little time to do it.. i'm so stress.. esp. with my group work.. i thought last semester was my worst group work ever.. but this one is even worse than that.. my mate left to singapore already before all the work done.. *sigh.. no responsibility at all.. omg.. i hate that kind of attitude. i have to do all the work.. and he will get the same mark like me.. that's really not fair !! (>.<) i hate group workkkkk.. it's better for me to work alone rather than working in a group but my mate doesn't do anything.. at least i can manage my time so i still can get enough rest.. *sigh i'm sure he is having fun right now in singapore with his gf.. but me.. still wake up waiting for the printer to print MY poster.. it's really mine.. i shouldn't put his name on that poster.. he doesn't even have initiative to help me.. we divided the same amount of work at first.. but at the end i did all the work and he did nothing.. omg..
[[indo mode on]]
huahhhhhhhhh.. pengen marah2 de rasanyaaaaaa.. sampe kapan gw harus sabarrrrrrrrr.. nahan kesel kalo uda jadi susah sendiri.. harusnya dari dulu aja gw omelin tu orang.. parah banget seh.. cowo apaan tuh ga punya tanggung jawab sama sekali --.--' gila banget de tu orang.. gilaaa.. *sigh knapa gw jadi orang tu sabar bangett sehhhh!?!?!??!?!?! aiyah... kalo uda begini de (>.<) dada sampe sakit gara2 nahan kesel.. parah parah.. pengen rasanya bilang ke guru gw kalo tu orang ga ngapa2in.. sayang banget ga perna ada group review di jurusan gw.. coba ada.. at least i can feel better..
hmm.. ya uda de.. tomorrow will be my last day for this semester.. i hope everything gonna be fine tomorrow.. and then i wanna go buy souvenirs for my friends.. esp. for my long lost best friend ^^ can't wait to go around melb & tasmania with my fam.. and go back to indo together ^^
ladybunny ♥
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005
~* New Life *~
huah.. kemaren baru aja libur mid-smester break semingguan gituh.. enakk banget dehhh.. hari rabu kemaren gw pegi ma temen2 ke Balarat - Sovereign Hill.. tempat tambang emas gitu.. kita nyewa mobil.. pegi ber8.. it was really fun!! kayanya bole tu tiap liburan kita nyewa mobil terus pegi kemana gitu yg jauh rame2.. bener2 kerasa banget liburannya ^^ pulang dari sana, malemnya dinner di st.kilda.. terus abis itu kita ke port melbourne buat poto2 doank hueheue.. rasanya legaaaaa banget de.. kayanya ga ada beban sama sekali ^^ hmm terus kamisnya sampe minggu kemaren gw ikut retreatnya PDKKI diRawson Village.. itu juga fun banget.. banyak ktemu temen2 baru.. terus ret2nya beda banget, ga kaya ret2 biasa.. ya mungkin karna da lama ga ikut jadi kerasa banget kali yah.. tapi yg pasti.. ret2 kemaren bener2 bikin gw lega banget.. banyak banget hal yg gw dapetin di ret2 kemaren.. hal yg berguna banget buat gw.. ret2 kemaren bener2 bikin gw masuk ke idup baru gitu heuheuee.. thanks to God banget deh, gw bole ikut ret2 itu.. hmm terus pulang2.. turun tram di city langsung balik to reality de.. inget lagi semua tugas2 yg ada huehueee.. mana ada report pula buat senen yg belom dibikin.. gila banget.. dah gitu karna buru2, jadinya telat presentasi de pas hari senen.. padahal gw tu grup 2.. bisa2nya presentasi pertama kali (>.<) tapi makasi banget ma Tuhan, gw masi bisa presentasi walopun telat 1 slide hehe.. terus yg dah gw bikin cepet2 reportnya.. ternyata ga dikumpulin hari itu.. kumpulin minggu depan.. ya gut lah.. gw bikinnya da salah juga seh itu hehehe.. hmm i can really feel God blessing these days ^^ mungkin bener kali yah prinsip adenya oma gw.. katanya dia selalu berjalan bersama Yesus makanya dia selalu ceria.. maybe gw juga harus gitu.. yeah.. i'll never walk alone because i always walk with Jesus ^^
ladybunny ♥
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005
~* why.. *~
*sigh.. it's been 2 weeks.. or maybe 3 weeks i have this kind of feeling.. can't explain it.. it's just hurting me so bad.. really really bad.. never felt like this before.. why do i have to read all of that stories.. why am i still reading it altough i know it's gonna hurt me.. why.. why.. i just wanna cry everytime i read it.. how stupid i am believing every figures on every stories that i read before.. now i believe, stories only stories.. they don't exist in this world.. nothing is perfect.. i shouldn't act like other people.. now, i only can regret those things.. the things that i did.. now i lost something that i should have.. i feel that my heart really hurt everytime i remember that name.. my heart will beat faster.. but it's not like when you meet someone you love.. it's just hurt.. i only feel the pain.. sadness.. not happiness.. is there any second chance for me?? if so, then i will surely be myself .. dun wanna be other people again.. *sigh
ladybunny ♥
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Thursday, September 15, 2005
~* Fairy TaLes *~
hari ini gw nyobain bioskop di melb central !!! trakir kali harga promosi $8 all session timess... wahhhh.. keren abisssss!!!! sayang tadi ga sempet nyobain yg BEAN BAG ROOM haizzzz... pertama kalinya gw denger ada bioskop yg kursinya pake bean bag semua!!! huahahahaha.. tadi da nyobain bean bag depan roomnya seh.. gede gitu.. satu orang satu bean bag gede yg empuk.. enak buangettttttttttttt huahauhaua.. pengen nyobainnnnn.. harga tiketnya sama pula lagi.. sayang tadi malem banget mulenya.. filmnya ga gitu menarik juga.. next time lah.. gw harus nyobain !!!!! hahahaa.. asli tu cinema keren abis designnya.. ga cuma diluar doank.. dalemnya juga keren hehe.. untung waktu itu gw dateng pas arstitek HOYTS melb central ngasi lecture.. kerennn abisssss.. ga nyangka aslinya keren jugaaa huaaaaahhhh..
niweyz.. lagu backsound blognya sekarang Tong Hua by Guang Liang.. yg baru kemaren gw tau kalo nama laennya itu Michael Wong, penyanyi kesukaan gw dari dulu.. gw punya atu albumnya, lagu2nya enak semuaaaa.. ga nyangka ternyata itu dia.. hmm lagu ini sedih seh.. tapi keren abis gitu.. cerita di v-klip ma arti liriknya beda gitu.. kalo di v-klip intinya yg cowo tu pemain piano gitu.. pas dia mo konser, cewenya masuk rumah sakit karna kanker.. jadi cewenya ga bisa dateng.. pas konsernya mo mulai.. dia telpon cewenya pake hape, terus hapenya ditaro diatas piano.. jadi cewenya tetep bisa dengerin dia konser walopun gi dirumah sakit.. intinya mah kaya ngasi semangat hidup buat cewenya gitu.. isn't that sweet???? ^^ wuahhh.. si Michael ini songwriter juga.. kayanya seh lagu2nya dia, dia tulis sendiri.. keren2 banget kata2nya.. hmm.. oh iya.. gw ada link buat liat flashnya dia.. mirip2 ma v-klipnya seh.. tapi ini animasi gitu.. tapi check it out aja.. keren abissss !!! nih kesini.. http://www.f130.net/flash/music4758.htm
oh ya.. tadi pas nonton.. gw liat trailernya "chicken little" kayanya kocak tuh.. soundtracknya bisa lagu numa2 dance gituh ahaha.. kocak abis tu ayam narinya huahauhuaa.. gw ampe ketawa2 gitu cuma liat trailernya doank.. itu juga harus nonton ahhhhhh hahahahaa... kapan ya muncul disiniiiiiiiiii, ga sabar pengen nonton hehehehe..
aniway.. masa ya obat batuk yg biasa gw minum ituh.. efek sampingnya bikin ga ngantuk.. aiyohhh.. ada2 aja deh.. biasa mah bikin ngantuk.. ni malah kebalikannya hahaha.. kocak abis.. tadi gw baru baca gitu.. abis dari kemaren koq gw ga bisa tidur gitu.. ternyataaaaaa --.--'
hmm ya uda ah segini dulu.. mo bobo cepet hari iniiiii ^^
ladybunny ♥
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Wednesday, September 07, 2005
~* SakuRa FloweRs *~
hari ini makin parah de sakitnya (>.<) bangun2 leher gw bengkak gitu.. nelen aer aja sakitnya minta ampun --.--' jadinya tadi ke dokter de.. pas nyampe sana, orangnya bilang ga ada dokter buat hari ini.. aiyohhh.. kacau banget.. terus gw jadinya buking yg sore di klinik laen.. untung ada.. tapi parah banget yah dokter2 sini.. orang sakit aja harus buking dokter dulu --.--' keburu mati duluan kali tuh.. parah banget.. aniway, tadi pas ke klinik, gw ngelewatin sederetan pohon sakura.. hmm disini disebutnya cherry blossom de kalo ga salah.. huah.. keren banget deh.. pink gitu.. bunganya kecil2 ^^ uda lebih banyak bunganya dari terakhir gw lewat sana.. cantik banget bunganya.. waktu itu gw sempet metik, tapi ga lama terus layu.. jadi tadi gw metik lagi.. sayangnya rontok bunganya --.--' ya uda de.. tapi untung waktu itu da sempet poto.. ^^
ladybunny ♥
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