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April 7th, 1985
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Monday, February 28, 2005

~* Am i too shy or too quiet?? *~

today, finally i went to the church [[ after 1 month didn't go there --.--' ]] .. usually i went to St. Francis church which is near my apartment. but today i went to St. Patrick Cathedral with my "ST" - gank hahaha ;p the church is soooooo BIG.. but it's a great building anyway ^^ but the mass wasn't good.. not so many people in there.. it's just so quiet inside.. really quiet.. maybe there're just 50 people in there.. after that we went to Red Silk to have dinner together ^^ finally i ate the sweet&sour pork haha.. i really want to eat that food since 3 days ago ;p taste sooooo good hehee..

hmm.. not much conversation happened today between me & my friends.. i think i'm too quiet.. aniway.. lately i always stay at home, so now i feel sooooo tired --.--' wanna go to bed early today..
ladybunny ♥ 6:07 PM link to post




~* BebeRes aLL Day.. *~

[[ indonesia mode : on ]]

hehe.. gi males nulis pake inggris.. beside gw juga banyak yg ga tau inggrisnya --.--' hmm.. kemaren ga sempet ngisi blog, soalnya siang2 gw beresin project sampe sore.. abis itu beberes sampe jam 3 pagi.. parah ya?? haha.. gw kalo beberes emang luama buanget seh ;p apalagi kalo ttg baju.. haha.. lemari gw overload gitu.. da kebanyakan baju ampe da ga muat diisi apa2 lagi.. ngambil baju aja susah bener --.--' jadi harus disortirin d.. hasilnya 1 koper guede full baju2 ga kepake --.--' parah.. itu pun lemari masi penuh buanget.. kayanya harus stop shopping neh.. bahaya bgt.. kecuali kalo nanti gw da pinda apartment 'n dapet master bedroom yg ada closetnya hauhuahuaa.. kalo itu seh da aman d baju sebanyak apapun bakalan masuk ;p tapi still ga mo boros2 ah.. bulan ini da mayan seh irit.. bukan mayan malah.. gw irit buanget huahuahua... cuma pake 1/7 dari biasanya ;p keren2.. moga2 begini terus haha.. hmmm.. masi pengen beres2 d.. kayanya masi ga enak.. kamar berantakan buanget --.--' maklumla kamar kecil barangnya ga kira2 banyaknya hahaha...

niweyz.. enaknya nulis pake indo haha.. lancar bener ;p hmmm ya uda gitu aja d.. ga tau mo nulis paan lagee.. abis emang seharian kerjaannya beberes doank seh hahahaa... ;p
ladybunny ♥ 11:59 AM link to post


Saturday, February 26, 2005

~* Nice Weather .. finally ^^ *~

wahhhh today the weather is sooooo great!!! although a lil bit raining in the morning --.--' but on the afternoon til now i can still feel the cold.. waaa fresh air finally hehe.. can breathe easily now ...

not much to tell today.. i got a new project [[again?!]] .. can you guess what the project is??? haha.. i don't think your guessing is right hehe.. because i have to make a blog for this project.. hahaha.. sounds cool huh? at first i was so surprised about this..haha how come my teacher ask me to make a blog? sounds silly --.--' i was thinking.. is blogging kind of stuff really populer now??? hahaha.. but noone in my class knows about it.. well yeah.. in my project, i have to make a blog to put all my design thoughts there..it would be better for me if i can write everyday.. which means i have to write 2 blogs --.--' hahaha... still silly for me.. so next week, my teacher's gonna make 1 blog for the whole "penguin" group.. and in week 5 i have to make a blog for my own... i think it's gonna be interesting hahaa.. i'll tell you the address after my teacher made it.. anyway, my teacher chose penguin as the name of our group because we're going to study about new technology.. so yeah he chose the linux symbol.. penguin.. haha.. he also made a flash bout it.. and it is sooooo funny but cute haha.. in tuesday class, i'm in "porchini" group hahaha... the whole teachers said that the theme for this semester is mushroom *lol* so there are porchini, shiitake, truffle and .. hmm.. i forgot another 1 hahaha..

i'm so excited to go along this semester.. i think it's gonna be more fun than before.. well i hope so ^^ hmmm.... i think that's all for today..
ladybunny ♥ 2:03 PM link to post


Friday, February 25, 2005

~* This is My true story *~

this is the background story why i choose simple plan to express my feelings on these days... if you've already read the lyric..please pay more attention to the red colour sentences..

here is the story...

back in winter 2003 when i first came to melb for study...

i was so excited to go to the uni. there're 2 indonesian in august group, which is my foundation group. and the same number in june group. when i first met her, she is so kind to me. she's showing me how to do things, etc. she looks so nice. day by day we're getting closer. because my apartment is opposite of hers so we usually go to uni together. on weekend time, we usually go shopping or doing something fun. one day, she said to me " i'm so happy that you came to melb. i'm gonna be so bored if you're not here " i thought from that day we've already bestfriend. at least i feel that way..

month after that..

her highschool friend came to melb to study. i met her friend once when we went together to the Showground. it's the biggest festival in melb. things still going good..

week after that..

she started to make excuses everytime i ask her to go shopping with me. at that time, i was still believe her. day by day has passed away.. her excuses become nonsense.. this is the starting point when i have to feel suffer.. so many times i saw her went shopping with her highschool mate.. but when i ask her to go with me, she always say she's not in the mood to go out, she wants to stay at home..

summer 2004..

we're uni student right now. there're 4 indonesian in the class. she's still talk with me but it's not like before. we're just talking about our course. day by day she's getting closer with the other indonesians and at the same time, she's start to removing me from the group..

now..

we're still in the same class .. everyday.. but she didn't even noticed that i was there .. sitting in the same class with her.. the worst is she didn't even say a word when she's walking in front of me.. no more talking.. no more conversation.. i never did something bad to her.. but why.. why she do that to me?? why she have to make me suffer?? if she can just leave me alone.. maybe that would be better.. but she even took my friends.. my other indonesian friends from me.. why?? she never called me when i'm sick like she called the other guys.. when i ask her something, she didn't even answer it with the right fact.. she just talk me if she really need it.. and i really hate that manner.. when i talk to her, she doesn't even pay attention to it..

i always wait for her in the end of class and ask to go back home together.. but she never wait for me even once.. she always ask the other 2 indonesians to go shopping with her and she always did it in front of me.. but she never ask me even once.. she always say "hi!" to the other guys, but she never say it to me even once.. AND.. when i ask my friends to go out with me, she always suddenly ask them to go somewhere else with her.. when i'm talking to my friends, she always interrupt us and usually ask my friends to do something with her.. when i couldn't come to the class even because i was sick.. she never want to explained what's going on in the class that day.. she always just said nothing happened..although actually that day we got some important tutorial or we got new project for next week or the worst we suddenly got presentation for 1 day project.. she just said nothing.. that's all..

i think.. this is my fault.. my biggest fault to thought that she's my bestfriend.. i regreted that i was so nice to her before.. if i know that she's gonna be like this, it'll be better if i don't know her at all.. now, she's not even a friend to me.. she's even put me as her biggest enemy.. it'll be so much better if i don't meet her everyday.. because everytime i met her.. she always make me feel the pain.. so all the red sentences in the lyric is just my life ONLY because of her.. those are the things i feel everyday.. nothing make me feel better if she's still around..

ladybunny ♥ 6:32 PM link to post




~* New Teachers *~

i got 2 more new teachers today.. they're gonna teach us CAD.. 1 of them is so cute hahaha... well again.. still young and cute *lol* anyway, i like the new timeable which is make me have to wake up at 7.30 am everyday..except thursday..it's good to wake up on a certain time so i can really arrange my eating time and also my bed time ^^

hmm.. guess there's nothing interesting today except that cute teacher hehee.. but still the weather makes me suffer.. 35 degrees everyday..oh my God.. please.. give me some fresh air to breathe >.<

ladybunny ♥ 3:48 PM link to post


Thursday, February 24, 2005

~* This is Me... can you FeeL it?? *~


ladybunny ♥ 6:57 PM link to post




~* i'll SurViVe *~

yeaaaa.. I'll survive !!! from all the emptiness i feel, from all the people here in Melb who always hurting me, from all the pain i have.. from everything !!

i change the backsound today.. well actually not me that change the backsound.. i were just requesting it hehe.. yeah, i choose a song from Simple Plan that called " Welcome to my life" because i think the lyric kinda fits with my situation right now. it doesn't mean that i'm desperate, but yeah.. that's how i feel right now.

hmm today.. i have a group work.. well the group will last until the end of this semester.. and i think God read my blog *lol* because between 6 of us.. i'm the only asian.. well, i think it's better for me..i can practice my english .. at least until the end of this semester.. and the people also nice.. not like several rude australian ppl ... but still.. i didn't open my mouth even a bit when we're doing a group meeting.. it's just weird, everytime i wanna say something, someone alway say it before me.. it's like he/she can read my mind.. i feel bad to them.. it's like i'm an arrogant type of person and i'm not happy being in their group.. but actually i like being there rather than if i have to join a group with the indonesian ppl in it.. no way man !! it's enough for me.. well i hope everything gonna be just fine.. and i hope they can understand why i'm so quiet today..

anyway.. today the weather is just so damn hot... 35 degrees !! oh man... it's too hot for me.. my apartment is like a spa right now.. can't breathe easily --.--' really really bad weather.. i can't wait for winter.. i want 6 degrees weather!!

ladybunny ♥ 1:14 PM link to post


Wednesday, February 23, 2005

~* PasTa MacHinE *~

my first project that has to be done today is making a kinetic machine from pasta. the function of it is to deliver an egg to some distance. it's sound easy but the real is it's not that easy. after i got lots of ideas then i start to try to make 1 of them. and it doesn't work as it's supposed to. so i try to make my second one, i was kinda afraid when one of my tutor ask me to try it. but who knows that the machine can work well!! i was happy at that time. but unluckily me, when i have to do a presentation in front of my whole classmates, the machine doesn't work AT ALL. and they laugh at me *sigh* i was kinda embarassed because of that, esp. when my tutors are doing vote whose machine is the best one, one of them shout the name of my machine very very loud. he said "i really like that machine which doesn't do anything" omg... and then the whole class including all of the tutors laughing like they saw chicken's climbing on the wall *sigh*

ladybunny ♥ 5:07 PM link to post


Tuesday, February 22, 2005

~* First day of my Second year program *~

today is my first day walking into uni again.. because i couldn't sleep last night, so i went early to the class. the class start at 9 am but i came there at 8.30 am. so it's really really early as a design student to come to the class hehe.. at that time i just saw 7 of my friends.. where's the others?? the corridor was so quiet. the door of the 'connecting future' class which is my first class today.. still closed.. so i just sit in the corridor and waiting for the others to come. the time is 9 0'clock already.. there's a lot of new faces coming from the lifts. i believe they're the first year students [[ --> feelin' good as a senior hahaha... bad tradition in Indo >.< ]] .. time keep on running.. but still there's no other familiar faces come to this floor. finally, one by one coming and we're greeting each other and asking about the holiday. after talking for a while, the new teacher shows up. he told us that we're divided into 4 groups. and unfortunately, i'm in group C which will have his class on wednesday. well, i don't care.. i've came there.. so i keep following his class just for 30 minutes hahaa.. after that i went to the modelling class.. hmm.. that new teacher seems really really new as a teacher.. he's so nervous so he's talking really really fast.. i don't really get it what he said, because it's still in the morning and my brain still want to sleep *lol* but i notice that he's quite handsome hahaha.. still young & handsome.. nice teacher.. hahaha.. but the bad thing is.. the subject is engineering design.. which mean that i have to study physic again.. but that's not the worst.. the worst is today, i got 2 projects which are due next week.. oh man.. this is still the first week of the program.. yea yea yea.. i realised my 'stressful day' is already start..

anyway, this evening i have dinner with my korean friend.. i can say that she's the only bestfriend i have in melb although we didn't meet very often but we do care about each other. we had dinner at Kaneda..at first it was ok..it's all fine..until those 4 ABC girls come and sit beside us. i know that me and my friend's english is not that good. but it's not the reason for those girls to laugh at us. i really hate them. can they shut up and just do their own business!? well at first it was ok, until the last time when my friend asked me bout something and she didn't use proper english, they laugh at us and keep looking on us like we're 2 idiots that can't talk really well. o gosh.. i really wanna say " what are you laughing at?? i don't find anything funny on us.." but i don't want to fight with them.. *sigh* how come they're so proud with their english??? english is just a universal language.. if they're proud because they're ABC but they can talk 7 different languages really well.. then it's fine for me.. but this is JUST ENGLISH !!! gosh.. [[--> this is one of the reason i don't like to talk to local people --.--' ]]

the worst thing ever that the local people ever told me is "you're living in Austalia so you have to be able to speak english well' ... damn that people.. how bout if we change the fact.. how about if they're currently studying in Indo.. so i can say "you have to be able to speak indonesian really well because you live here" .. how's that??? don't they ever think that there's noone can study language in just 1 day?! how can they easily speak something like that.. don't they realise that they're born in this country??? of course they can speak english really well.. i can also speak indo really10000x well.. so PLEASE people.. please DO respect other people that have learn and can talk in your language.. although today i can't talk english really well, but i'm sure one day i can be in the same level as you guys..
ladybunny ♥ 5:47 PM link to post


Monday, February 21, 2005

~* Painful Eyes *~

this week, i always use my computer for at least 12 hours everyday. at first, i don't feel there's something wrong with my eyes. but day by day, my eyes getting blurry. and suddenly, yesterday, i got a horrible painful feeling on my eyes. i can't even open my eyes again. but when i close it, i feel so painful... that's such s horrible nightmare for me.. but thanks God when i wake up today, the pain is gone. then stupid me, at noon .. i can't help to use my computer again..sooooo... NOW.. i feel the pain again.. horrible..

i think i have to stop using my computer for a while and try to do something useful.. *sigh*

ladybunny ♥ 2:54 PM link to post


Sunday, February 20, 2005

~* Overseas Student *~

i've been in Oz for almost 2 years.. many things happened here.. but my english still really bad. i think it's because i always try not to talk to a local student. the reason is really simple.. i don't want them to think that i'm stupid, can't talk english really well. sometimes i feel really really stupid when they ask me something and then i don't understand until they repeat the sentence so many times then finally they give up and say "nevermind". uhhh that's the worst feeling i've ever had in communication factor. because it happened so many times, so i was thinking if i just answer it with my understanding. i don't care if my answer is wrong, at least i can answer the question. the fact is, that makes me feel better, but for them.. i think it's even worse, maybe they will think "what is this girl talking about?? hey, i'm not asking you that !!"

anyway, when i went back to Indonesia for the last 4 months, i feel it would be better for me if i'm studying in Indo. I don't need to think where i should live, what i'm gonna eat for breakfast, etc. but the most important thing is that i can talk to anyone i wanna talk to. there'll never be a misunderstanding. by the way, if i'm studying in Indo, i think i'll have enough time to resting hehehe... because in Oz, i have to cook, cleaning my apartment, doing everything alone...

hmm.. beside all of the bad things i've said, i just have 1 good thing to say. the good thing is i can learn how to be a great wife.. lol hahaha... but it's true right?? if i can take care of myself than i'll be able to take care of someone else ^^ BUT it doesn't mean that i'm gonna marry soon hahahaa...

well enough talking bout it.. i think i need to play 1 or 2 round of isketch game to relieve my headache hahaha.. and then i need to sleep..
ladybunny ♥ 10:17 PM link to post


Saturday, February 19, 2005

~* GooD-Bye *~

Goodbye..*sigh* i'm kinda sensitive with that word now..when i say goodbye, it's like i'll never meet that person again. maybe this is because i often read chicken soup book. it says, "whenever you have to say goodbye to someone, it would be better to tell your feelings to him/her. because noone knows that you can meet him/her again one day.." that book is really affecting my life a lot. no wonder because chicken soup is an inspirational book right?

So.. yeah.. i always feel like that everytime i say goodbye.. for me there is no such "good"-bye.. it always sad and bad "bye" ... now.. it's getting worse. i remember, when my friend said goodbye to me just for 4 months holiday back there in her country, i was crying. it suddenly happen. i really don't know why. it's kinda nonsense actually, but yeah it's happen and always happen to me until now.

And just now, one of my friend said goodbye to me. he's going back to his country for 1 year and then he'll back to melbourne again. he's going on june. but after he told me that he had to leave this country for a while, suddenly i cry.. gosh.. i don't want to cry anymore.. i want to smile.. but i can't.. *sigh* how can this thing always happen to me ??? it's just not good for myself but it's even worse for that person. you, for example, you don't wanna see someone's crying because of you right?? that's how i feel either.. but i'm standing in different side of that.. i'm the crying person. and i feel really really really bad everytime i cry..

ladybunny ♥ 10:07 PM link to post




~* Sleeping Disorder *~

Hm... I think I have to stop playing online games. I was a gunbound addict before.. and now.. I'm a big fan of the isketch game.OMG...It's quite fun actually.. because I can meet many new friends, playing together while chatting on the net. but it makes my life horrible. I couldn't sleep everynight. It makes me stay in front of my lovely computer for a whole day long. *sigh*

Anyway..next week is the first week of my second year program. I'm so excited to go to uni and meet my friends after 4 months holiday.. Quite long holiday I reckon hahaha... but as a design student, I think we really needed because it can replace our sleeping time hehehe. Usually we just sleep for 4 hours everyday. Well, that's already a lucky night.. The worst is when we didn't sleep for the whole week. Nightmare.. Everyone look like a walking zombie.. their faces, and maybe me, look so white.. like there is no blood flowing in our skin. Horrible.. and when I'm walking it's like I'm flying.. Nightmare..

Sometimes I feel bored with my course because it's all just about drawing and designing. I really miss my highschool. I miss every single subject in my highschool. I miss math, physics, chemistry, economic.. Uhhh if only I can go back to my highschool time.. I think it would be fun ^^

Hm.. why the weather is so hot!? OMG... I really really really hate summer !!! I never like hot weather.. many people say summer is better than winter.. but it doesn't work for me.. I like winter better.. No matter how cold it is I still like cold weather.. I get a lot of inspirations in winter time so I can do my work better.. and usually I can sleep well in this season hehehe...

ladybunny ♥ 12:17 PM link to post


Friday, February 18, 2005

~* When I dream of You... *~

The first thing that comes up into my mind whenever I hear your name is the moment when I have to let you go to some place that's really far from here... and that's the saddest moment in my life...

When I say goodbye... I wanna show you my smile.. the smile that always comfort you when you're sad.. when you feel lonely.. but I just can't.. I'm sorry.. I don't know why.. It's not my smile that shown on my face but teardrops.. Tears that I just wanna keep it in my heart.. keep it for myself.. Let my heart cry, but not my eyes..

One day...

One day.. I'm sure.. my tears that always dropping from my eyes will turn into the sweetest smile ever that I can show you.. yeah.. that smile.. the smile that I always want to show you everytime I say goodbye to you..

One day.. when my dreams come true.. I'll always smile for you..

One day.. when we get together again.. unseparateable.. I promise there will be no more teardrops on my face..

One day.. yeah.. it's one day.. when my dreams come true...

ladybunny ♥ 4:07 PM link to post




~* Finally I have my own blog !! *~

Whooaaaa... I'm so excited.. finally my blog is done!!! Thanks a lot to NeDi who made this CooL blog for me ^^ Actually I want to make it by myself.. but too bad... I don't understand the HTML stuff >.< if I have time, I'll learn 'bout it and then make a blog truly by myself.. well.. that's one of my dreams ^_- v

Hm... usually I write to my diary everyday.. but from now on it's gonna be different.. I'll close my diary book and share my thoughts here ^^

ladybunny ♥ 2:07 PM link to post