Friday, February 25, 2005
~* This is My true story *~
this is the background story why i choose simple plan to express my feelings on these days... if you've already read the lyric..please pay more attention to the red colour sentences..
here is the story...
back in winter 2003 when i first came to melb for study...
i was so excited to go to the uni. there're 2 indonesian in august group, which is my foundation group. and the same number in june group. when i first met her, she is so kind to me. she's showing me how to do things, etc. she looks so nice. day by day we're getting closer. because my apartment is opposite of hers so we usually go to uni together. on weekend time, we usually go shopping or doing something fun. one day, she said to me " i'm so happy that you came to melb. i'm gonna be so bored if you're not here " i thought from that day we've already bestfriend. at least i feel that way..
month after that..
her highschool friend came to melb to study. i met her friend once when we went together to the Showground. it's the biggest festival in melb. things still going good..
week after that..
she started to make excuses everytime i ask her to go shopping with me. at that time, i was still believe her. day by day has passed away.. her excuses become nonsense.. this is the starting point when i have to feel suffer.. so many times i saw her went shopping with her highschool mate.. but when i ask her to go with me, she always say she's not in the mood to go out, she wants to stay at home..
summer 2004..
we're uni student right now. there're 4 indonesian in the class. she's still talk with me but it's not like before. we're just talking about our course. day by day she's getting closer with the other indonesians and at the same time, she's start to removing me from the group..
now..
we're still in the same class .. everyday.. but she didn't even noticed that i was there .. sitting in the same class with her.. the worst is she didn't even say a word when she's walking in front of me.. no more talking.. no more conversation.. i never did something bad to her.. but why.. why she do that to me?? why she have to make me suffer?? if she can just leave me alone.. maybe that would be better.. but she even took my friends.. my other indonesian friends from me.. why?? she never called me when i'm sick like she called the other guys.. when i ask her something, she didn't even answer it with the right fact.. she just talk me if she really need it.. and i really hate that manner.. when i talk to her, she doesn't even pay attention to it..
i always wait for her in the end of class and ask to go back home together.. but she never wait for me even once.. she always ask the other 2 indonesians to go shopping with her and she always did it in front of me.. but she never ask me even once.. she always say "hi!" to the other guys, but she never say it to me even once.. AND.. when i ask my friends to go out with me, she always suddenly ask them to go somewhere else with her.. when i'm talking to my friends, she always interrupt us and usually ask my friends to do something with her.. when i couldn't come to the class even because i was sick.. she never want to explained what's going on in the class that day.. she always just said nothing happened..although actually that day we got some important tutorial or we got new project for next week or the worst we suddenly got presentation for 1 day project.. she just said nothing.. that's all..
i think.. this is my fault.. my biggest fault to thought that she's my bestfriend.. i regreted that i was so nice to her before.. if i know that she's gonna be like this, it'll be better if i don't know her at all.. now, she's not even a friend to me.. she's even put me as her biggest enemy.. it'll be so much better if i don't meet her everyday.. because everytime i met her.. she always make me feel the pain.. so all the red sentences in the lyric is just my life ONLY because of her.. those are the things i feel everyday.. nothing make me feel better if she's still around..
ladybunny ♥
6:32 PM
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