Thursday, July 21, 2005
~* Another goodbye... *~
3 pm today..
we are still having fun. making joke of each others. having lunch together.. i feel so happy.. weird.. it is weird.. i should be sad by the time i woke up today.. but that's not what i feel..
6 pm today..
i have to go to my class and you have to go home.. i thought that would be the last time i see you.. but still.. happiness are staying around me and you.. sweet goodbye with sweetest smile and laugh.. still teasing each other.. no tears..
8.41 pm today..
suddenly one of my friend called me, but i couldn't pick it up. my teacher is keep staring at me. but lucky me, i had finished my presentation at that time.. although it's an awful one (>.<) ..keep thinking.. my mind has gone somewhere else.. not at this place.. so i decided to message my friend..
9.14 pm today..
still thinking.. should i go or not.. i don't wanna go because i might break our promise.. my mind keep telling me to stay and try to focussing to what my client say.. it is important for me to stay. i have another presentation next week..showing my design ability and try to impress him.. but.. my heart tells me to go..
9.29 pm today..
i decided to follow my heart and go.. i don't care anymore about my teacher, my client and my work.. i just want to meet him and say goodbye..
9.43 pm today..
i was running.. keep running although my shoes are so slippery.. almost fall down couple of times.. bourke st. tram stop.. the tram is there. "i'm so lucky," i say to myself.. try to catch it as fast as i can.. but there's a work construction.. i have to go the other way and try to run faster.. sadly, the tram is leaving by the time i got there.. "i can't give up," i said.. so i looked at the timetable.. dissapointed.. have to wait for 10 minutes 'til the next tram arrive..
9.45 pm today..
try to find another way and still not give up to myself.. so, i go to collins st. to catch tram there altough it will stop 2 blocks away from the bus stop.. there are no trams.. silence.. the timetable shows that another tram will arrive in 3 minutes.. so happy at that time..
9.48 pm today..
there is no sign of tram coming.. i feel hopeless.. i have to get to the bus station by 12 minutes.. don't think can make it.. so i called him and said that i can't make it.. still hoping a miracle..
9.51 pm today..
the tram is coming.. i get in and then tell the driver to stop at spencer st. ..9 minutes left.. still hoping i can meet him for the last time..
9.55 pm today..
i get off the tram and waiting for the green light on.. 2 minutes waiting.. still red.. suddenly, i saw a man.. he is trying to get into a white bus.. "there is no sign of bus stop around here," i told myself.. after knocking the door a few times, the driver lets him in.. unconciously, i follow that man and get into the bus.. i ask the driver about the place i'm heading to.. he told me, "it's just over there" but i keep asking to take me to the bus station.. suddenly, he says, "ok, i'll take you there" .. i smile then sitting near to the driver.. keep looking at the bus window.. i don't even know that place.. never go there before..
9.59 pm today..
i arrive at the bus station.. all of my friends are waiting for me.. including the bus driver.. we get into the bus directly.. sitting at the back left corner of the bus.. smiling.. miracle do happen this time..
10.20 pm today..
airport.. the place that i hate most.. i never find happiness there.. only sadness around me when i'm in that place.. but i remember our promise to leave without tears.. so i say to myself, this time will be different..
11.23 pm today..
time for him to get into the plane.. still smiling, laughing and teasing each other.. but the tears suddenly start dropping from my eyes.. i keep telling myself, this time will be different.. i have to keep my promise.. so i'm staring at his eyes, smiling and say, "this time will be different.. i save my tears for another time.. 3 months later, you're gonna be my driver.. remember, 3 months.." we start to laugh and smile again..
11.27 pm today..
one of my friend ask us to pray together for him.. i'm sorry, i can't focus on what you're saying.. i'll pray for him later.. tears start dropping again.. i have to stop it.. remember our promise..
11.33 pm today..
he is walking to the big white glass door.. i say to myself, i can smile.. i don't want him to be sad.. by the time he turned around, i smile at him, wave my hand and say goodbye.. he's smiling back at me.. our sweetest promise.. we made it..
00.25 am..
start writing this blog.. i want to remember every single miracle that happen today.. happiness still with me now but the tears start dropping again.. it's ok.. only 3 months.. i can wait...
ladybunny ♥
6:39 PM
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