Friday, August 12, 2005
~* I look up so the tears won't fall.. *~
today, i have CAD presentation. This time is really different. I started my rendering on sunday, although i still need to do some more last night, but at least i didn't do it the whole night. I'm quite satisfy with my first rendering, altough it doesn't look like the real product, at least i'm happy with it. Sadly, i can't stick with it when everyone told me to make the real product. So, i started new rendering with new materials and environment. Everytime i finished my rendering, i always ask my friends' opinion. And all i can say is, that was the stupidest thing i've ever done. I don't even care with my own taste. You know what i've got in my presentation?? yea.. my lecturer keep asking me a lot of questions that i couldn't even find the answer.. he didn't even allow me to explain things..he says, "just accept it that your presentation is fucked up.." it was really pissing me off.. i do wanna cry at that moment.. why it has to be me?? why he makes me feel like i'm the stupidest person in class?? why?? so after all presentation finished, i talked to him 'bout this thing. and guess what did he say to me?? he says, "i'm asking you all the questions because you are a strong girl, you're not easily get upset, you're not crying.. all the work that you've done is really good.. i just want to make you as an example for everyone else in the class, so next time you and them know what to do.." then i explained everythings to him.. and yea.. listening to other people can become my worst problem ever.. i shown him my renderings that i'm gonna put in my presentation before.. i didn't put it because everyone thinks that it's ugly bla bla bla.. and guess what?? he likes it.. he says, "this is the thing that you have to show everyone in your presentation.." damn.. i feel like wanna cry.. i shouldn't listen to others opinion.. i should just go with my own taste.. and btw i'm not that strong.. seriously.. i'm fragile.. maybe people think that i'm strong to face all the things.. but they don't know what happen when i got home.. all i can do now is only regreting what i've done.. it was seriously pissing me off.. never feel like this before..
ladybunny ♥
1:47 PM
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