Monday, September 11, 2006
~* I'm Back !!!! *~
i almost forgot that i have a blog.. it's been one year since my last post --.--' quite long huh.. yea.. i've been really busy this year.. there're a lot of things goin' on in my mind at the same time.. i dunno why.. but it make me so depressed >.<>
hmm i think it started when i moved to my friend's apt last year.. since then, i've got a lot of problems.. dunno why.. i live my life like usual but things seem not working out well almost all the time.. especially these days.. it's so hard for me to find a good inspiration and great idea for my design. it really makes me frustated. it seems like i'm having a bad day everyday.. even when i go out for shopping, it's not as fun as before. i couldn't really enjoy it.. and again i dunno why.. and it's really weird if i can't enjoy my shopping time.. hmm well for some people who knew me really well, they will understand why i'm saying it.. but just in case you didn't know and curious about it.. oh well.. i used to be a shopaholic.. i can't stay at home the whole day.. i have to go out everyday, either go to cafe, shopping or maybe only window shopping.. but at least i have to buy something in one week period.. if not, i will get really 'crazy' and stress --.--' weird huh? well that's the way it is..
the good thing about it is that i can save some money for my summer holiday this year which is if all going according to the plan, i'm gonna go to USA for the first time in my life hehehe ;p i'm so excited.. hope i can get the visa though.. otherwise i'm gonna be so bored in Indo doing nothing. hmm talking about indo.. as the day goes by, i couldn't find anything good about that country though.. except for the food and for a really cheap products they have comparing to Aussie. if those things gone then i couldn't find any reason to have a holiday there beside my family.. if in the future they're still staying there though hehe..
hmm aniway, back to the topic.. yea, i'm so depressed right now, especially today.. *sigh* i don't know whether i have rights to blame my lecturer or not. he sent me an email 9PM satuday and asks us to do a presentation on monday.. the presentation part it's ok because i know that already.. but the worst part is that he wants us to make 3d model of our concepts, do a nice rendering and basically make the products look like the real things.. it took a long time to make it especially because my concepts are not as simple as it look when i start to make it in rhino.. well, the good thing is that finally i can finish on time, although there is one concept that i can't render because almost half of the surfaces are gone --.--' i was quite happy with my idea.. but then.. my teacher didn't like it.. he said he's not into that style.. well, just to let you know, he is the first aussie person that i found out so narcist esp. about his own products. so yea, what he likes it's only something that is similar to what he has produce. one of my friend has the same exact lamp like he had and he said it's fantastic, very clever and it's a brilliant idea, which i think he shouldn't say that thing.. it's just not right.. it's like plagiarism. because what i learn so far in this course, i can't design something that is already in the market or even a concept that people already known. but this-narcism-teacher seems like force us to copying what he has done.. and one thing that i think is really really stupid comment is when he ask me just to find an old chandelier and just wrapped it in silk to make a new lamp.. that was the most dumb comment i've ever heard.. it's not even redesign the lamp, it's only wrapping like a present or something. at least, as a good designer, he can suggest me a better aspect of light design for that particular place not just like that.. oh well.. yea, life is cruel and weird.. he made me to start all over again, by searching for a great place for the lamp and then make a 3d model, render it and finished it in photoshop to make it looks real.. well well.. i just wanna scream out loud now.. i'm really stress >.<
aniway.. i think i better sleep and forget everything for a while and see how it goes tomorrow.. hope everything will be better.. yea,.. i hope..
ladybunny ♥
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